The last two years have in a lot of ways gone quickly but then a trip past Queenscourt and it's like yesterday. I do know that there isn't a day goes by when I don't think about you, your strength and courage, and try to lead my life following the example you have left me with forever. I miss you so much but it is nothing compared to what your beautiful daughters cope with every day. You would be soooo proud of them Jack, they are a credit to you and you are never really gone to me because you live on in them. Meg, Clo, Larna & Aaron miss you so much and, like them, I just wish you were here to see Caitlin, she is so gorgeous. The wedding is going to be a lovely day for Wendy, I promise you, but it just won't be the same without you there. Although not physically there you will still be a HUGE part of the day, in all our thoughts, and I know you will be looking down on us, sending us all your love. I will keep the promise I made you, to look after Wendy forever, but especially on Sunday. You'll only come back and haunt me otherwise! Although that will be better than not having you here at all. I love and miss you. xxx P.S. I had a spray tan last night and the girl could hear me laughing outside when I looked at myself in the mirror. I was thinking about what you would have said seeing the 'mud streaked' face and body looking back at me and just made me laugh more. I love you. xxx