Mum, not sure how to get through Sunday without you. What I would give to have you there, holding Caitlin, laughing with your wonderful sparkling eyes, telling Roy and Chris off for not behaving properly. But I know you would want us to be happy, and we will try. I think you would approve of the wedding - Jan has organised it for us, so all will go according to plan, but there will be a huge hole, where you should be. No-one in this world could be missed more than you. As Rachel said, not a day goes by that we don't talk about you, and it really hurts that you are not here, and I don't know where you are. I still live my life hoping to make you proud of me, but I know you always were, no matter what I did - Ju too, and Aaron and the 3 girls. And you would adore Caitlin. As Megan has said, she will grow up loving you, we'll play your videos and talk about you all the time, and play the games with her that you would have played. You have been the best mum, friend, and role model and your influence will live on through the genrations. I love you so much. x